Society can't make you whole.

Society...they tell us we have to have a bf/gf or you have to have an interest. Society also tells us to follow our heart...and well we know where that leads us. But take this into consideration, the Bible says that the heart is deceitful an desperately wicked. Which totally contradicts what society tells us. I mean why would we follow out hearts if they were deceitful. So I'm done with this you have to have a bf and if you don't have one you must be looking for someone to fill that void. The easy thing to do is to fall into that category and have those desires. Okay when I think of society I think of the world. And just so happens when I was doing my quiet time tonight one passage talked about how you can't be half way on the worlds side and the other half on Gods side. The world and God are enemies. And so I feel like when we let this world conform us into thinking we have to have a bf/gf then we are choosing the world over God in that instance. Which ultimately we know is wrong which is sin. I guess ultimately I just wanna feel whole and well to be honest this whole seeking after a bf and what not isn't going to make you feel whole. I'm learning more and more every day that God is the ONLY thing that is going to make me feel whole. And when it comes down to it, I don't want to just praise Him and be in the mindset that if I am patient He is gonna bring me the right guy. I wanna be in the mindset of this is God. Why is He not enough, when He is really all I need? I want to have a desire for God so much that I'm not like just being patient for that right guy. But that I am enjoying every single second of growing closer to the Author an Creator of a love that is never ending and never failing. I mean really of we are honest NO man can even come close to beating that!

A year ago...

A year ago from today my world came crashing down when my parents walked through the door and gave me and my sister some of the worst news of our life. We had just brought in the new year the day before. It's gonna be a good year, a better year. Well on the 2nd of January my mom had a doctors appointment to get the results of some tests. My parents walk in the front door and they call both me and my sister in the sun room, we can tell they have been crying. And that's when they tell us that mom has cancer. I can't even explain how I felt that day. I think I just felt like this is supposed to happen to me. You hear of people getting cancer, but you never really think it will actually hit that close to home. I don't remember crying that much in my whole life. All I could think is not my mom...will she be here for Mother's Day, or Christmas, or thanksgiving.... It has been a long hard year. But one year later my mom is cancer free, we got another thanksgiving, and Christmas! I can tell you this is probably the most thankful I have been in a very long time. I can see how God has used this experience to bring my family closer to Him and to bring my family closer to each other. So today don't take your family for granted. Love on them. Cause tomorrow you could be the one being told that your closest loved one had cancer. And when bad times do come, it may not be cancer but bad times will come....hold onto Jesus. That's what's gonna get you through. So this year I wanna focus on leaning on Jesus more with my life and just loving my family! Happy New Year everyone!